12 Weeks Sober: College Goals & Self-Discovery

almost 12 weeks off of weed, Feeling good for real getting ready to start the next semester of college, got some more enigma mushrooms recently and took a microdose of them abt a week ago and had a blast hiking with my friend, the more i’m off weed the more i’m realizing how much it is held me back considering i started at 12 and how much i used it to cope. My gym gains have been pretty good since i’ve been off and i’ve quit most every substance except for mushrooms occasionally mindfully tripping usually out in nature. I’m pretty locked in and i hope to make more friends in college this semester even tho it’s harder than highschool. I’ve had trouble getting along with my roommates but i hope that it gets better. if not than that’s fine because imma move out after this semester. I plan on taking this summer off and trying to really find myself and maybe start social media content creation in my own time. I really enjoy taking photos of nature and mountains. I enjoy hiking and am trying to start backpacking more. I eventually wanna make some psilocybin tea in the mountains eventually. Sometimes i crave cigarettes but that’s normal because my brain is just wired that way but i haven’t smoked any in around 2ish months. I’m really proud of myself for quitting this long and trying to improve myself and i hope that i can keep going longer. I’ve been struggling with sleep over this winter break and staying up thru the night many days because my schedule isn’t as anchored and my skin acne has been struggling somewhat but it should get better when i move back into college. i’m reallly interested into health and i need to get sum red light and blackout curtains soon for my room. Im hoping to improve myself social life this semester and maybe get a girlfriend in the upcoming semester or this year. It’s hard to find women that are locked in on their health and interested in fitness and mindfulness. I miss weed and look at where i can buy it a lot of times because of how easy it is to buy where i am. I hope to have a strong and meaningful trip with the enigma that i have soon and gain some new insights. I plan on listening to more music soon especially psychedelic music to intensify and better my tripping and visuals. I really hope there is some sunny days coming where i can go outside and enjoy it and i’m excited for this summer to enjoy going out in the sun and maybe getting a tan and i love the sun. Might get a job this summer and upgrade mymiata handling with some new sway bars coilovers chassis bracing and a new radio and soft top. I really enjoy speeding thru the mountains with it. I’m hoping to improve myself significantly in the following semester and make sure that my gpa is higher than 2.5 like it was for my first semester. I have adhd and i have some stimulants but haven’t used any because i don’t like the appetite suppression and heart health effects of them but maybe i will take some this semester purely for academics. I hope to be more present in class this semester and not party any until the end of the semester and maybe drink once. It’s hard for me to not party because alcohol is super available for me because i have like 5ish gallons or something of mead down in the basement and it’s rlly strong. and i can go buy weed from dispo near my college and know a lot of places that don’t ask id. it’s just a battle within myself to stay sober and locked in. Everything feels a lot different than highschool and it makes me sad and happy. I took like a g of shrooms at graduation which was a rlly good experience which was nice and i enjoyed myself and it really gave me the most nostalia ive ever felt and highschool really went by fast. I’m studying actuarial science because i want to make a good living when im older and be able to afford a nice car to speed around the mountains. Sometimes i wish my family was more physically active as they have health problems and my father has heart problems and is obese and my mother has health problems as well. I really hope to get an attractive girl in my life soon as i have a decent build of abt 6’2 and 195ish lean. I hope to lose some of my bodyfat when i go back to college than i have maybe gained a. little bit of over winter break by walking around campus. i hope im able to get good classes. I enjoy being in college and away from my family as it’s nice to have a small and organized space as at home my whole house is messy and cluttered and schizo. I enjoy cooking my own healthy meals but it’s sad that i’m leaving that behind but it’s fine tbh. it’s going to be a lot of work to pack up tmrw and move out and a lot of stress seeing my roommates again as they r super loud and immature. I hope to get more into meditation and christianity as i go thru this year and grow closer to god. I go to church and i should keep going hopefully and maybe i can go every sunday this year. but anyways this is the most ive typed into this app and i might get the premium because its pretty nice but ye imma go get sum water and do sum meditation and mindfulness before church tmrw it’s currently 1205pm and i got church i gotta leave the house by 9:15 so i wanna go to bed within the next while but yeah. i might take a lil bit of enigma before church tmrw to be more present but depends on how i feel when i wake up but thats the end of this writing.

The user reflects on nearly 12 weeks of sobriety from cannabis, detailing positive impacts on fitness, focus, and general well-being, while also planning mindful psilocybin use and academic pursuits. They express a desire for improved social connections, acknowledge struggles with roommates and sleep, and aim for personal development through health, content creation, and spiritual growth, all while navigating temptations and past habits.