LSD Trip: Witnessing Consciousness Beyond Duality

That we live in an inherently dualistic universe but we as conscious sentient beings are witnessing this universe from outside of the dualistic nature we are born into. This came to me well more rather I vividly experienced it while on 600 ug of lsd mid peak after taking a few puffs off a joint. I was probably 2-4 hours into the trip and until this point I was sitting by a fire looking the trees which looked like the Fibonacci sequence and could see the perfect union of nature. It was like I could hear light in how everything in nature aligned together. Like the relationship of the overtone series and diatonic major and minor scales not literally but based on the relationships between the notes harmonically based on ratios and cymatics. Then I decided to smoke the joint as I was talking down to the dock at my lake house and as I started to smoke the joint it was like I was standing in the middle between duality which was represented by like these two black/white charachures that lowkey disturbed the fuck out of me on so many levels. Outside of the representations it felt like the universe opened up to this plane of pure light and pure dark and there was me standing in the middle. It went by quickly as it started but it felt like forever at the same time. As I witnessed myself being in this plane of consciousness I just walked forward down the stairs out of it and said fuck that! What the whole experience represents to me is that our consious awareness as the witness of our sentient experience has the ability to transcend duality through and even beyond time and space. I was aware that I was going through this pull between sides of duality and experience and chose to walk through it effectively transcending it through the middle way which unites all. After walking forward I just got down to the bottom and back up almost expecting to see this rupture in reality but I had the realization that I as the ego or more so an element of the collective egoic consciousness in myself was creating that lower dualistic plane of reality and it truly was a hallucination of reality from the perspective of the witness. The reason it felt like a rapture was because that reality does exist as a creation of the lower collective egoic consciousness but it is not true reality from the perspective of the witness or conscious awareness. After this I started walking back up the stairs and at one point I stopped and it felt as if I was looking through different versions of myself almost like different timelines or something comparable to that. In doing so I in a sense lost myself in between realities, and I couldn’t remember which was the original. This honestly freaked me the fuck out. After this everything felt off, like up felt like down left was right inside was outside everything was like almost glitched. I had this strange feeling of like impending doom or that I needed to die. So I just kind of froze and found my center and things calmed down rather quickly. And then just went on about my night still a little off but not bad, I had planned to also do lemon teek with like 4g that night and I did and the trip itself wasn’t much it was just a lot of listening to the music and thinking. It wasn’t until probably now that I realize it was all about the ego, and that the death was a metaphor or allegory for the change in who gets to drive the boat. Okay hear me out so I was able to calm myself down in that moment by slowing down sitting and finding my center which took me out of that state of panic and fear. I stopped pushing and looking for answers and I let go. It was a masterclass in how to recenter from a power that’s above me, the ego that is. Along those lines in that perspective it can be looked at as a metaphor for the denial of a desire which causes suffering which was my feeling of reality physically glitching. Fear in that case was a form of an attachment to a desired framework of how reality works or is. Where that suffering turned surrender is a metaphor for surrendering to the way. Not to our egos, but to our higher beings, our innermost pure selves, that feeling in your chest. So within, so without, as above, so below. I guess my ego was attached to time and reality to stay intact haha. So it caused itself suffering which through divine grace was surrendered to by recentering into the witness. Who knows, but I honestly didn’t have much of an intention for this trip other than to trip which is ego in itself. I wonder if the onset length lsd (and being synthetic) has to do with it. Because by the end I could honestly sense a bit of that like it had opened me up but I wasn’t going through the door the right way. Which honestly i don’t think is right for me since to my understanding from a story in rd’s sense means the true door to the otherside which is back into the source but that was by choice. So idk I think I have a few more trips with lucy in me. We’ll see if it comes. Which considering my experiences with psilocybin and ego death experiences and them being natural makes me wonder how that, synthetic vs organic psychedelics impacts their affect on consciousness. Then theres dmt haha. Ayahuasca is on my bucket list. Do want to try synthetic dmt though so if you have a reputable source dm me! :) Kinda went off the prompt a bit but it was worth it. Okay I’m going to bed. Goodnight! Namaste, Sage

During an LSD trip, the user experienced a profound realization of the universe's inherent duality and their own position as a conscious witness outside of it. They describe a disorienting encounter with dualistic representations of reality, followed by a conscious choice to transcend this plane, realizing their ego created this lower reality. The experience led to a temporary loss of self and a 'glitched' perception of reality, which was calmed by recentering and surrendering, interpreted as a metaphor for the ego's attachment to time and reality and the power of the higher self.

man this is such a heavy integration. that moment where you walked through and realized you were creating the duality itself, that's the real shit. the fear that came after makes total sense too, like your whole framework of reality just got deconstructed in real time. but the fact that you caught yourself and recentered instead of spiraling further... that's the whole practice right there

@riverwild that’s more or less of what I was trying to get at! Took me a while to quiet down to understand that but I see it clear as day now.