Transmuting Sexual Energy into Creative Power

Got the stuff I needed to get done today done, I’m feeling good, not great but much better than I have been over the past few days. Been feeling really drained mentally lately over this past week or so and have been needing to really push myself to get things done which has been difficult but I’ve been managing. Old habits have been getting to me, I don’t name them directly but happens to rhyme with born, and corn. So I’m sure you can put the plant in the pot. I could go into the million exoteric reasons for why it’s one of if not the largest factors for why I’ve been feeling the way I have lately. But I won’t we’re going full esoteric with this one, not really fully but we’re going under the surface with this one. Where does creativity come from? Specifically creative energy. You could say god, a higher power, our souls, our personalities, our upbringing, our physical energy, our mental or astral energy. All of those are correct but not fully. Creativity is the means of creation. Create. How were we as humans created? Well without getting too far into that rabbit hole and to put it bluntly we all came from two people having sex. The physical, energetic and divine union of masculine and feminine energies. That is what creates us as human beings. I’m a man so I’m gonna discuss the masculine side of this. So let’s go back to where we started. Where does creative energy come from? Well where did we come from? Sex and the union of divine sexual energy. So in a way creative energy is sexual energy. And cooking corn takes energy to cook if you get my point. So one might say stop eating corn. No shit Sherlock, it’s not that simple. Believe me if it were things would be a lot different. Newton was it that told us energy cannot be created nor destroyed right? What happens when you kept trying to fill up your car without driving it? It overflows in ways that can be harmful. Interesting analogy but it works haha. So what do you do, you drive, you use the energy. That’s transmutation, taking energy from one state to another. So if creative energy is analogous to sexual energy then it can be transmuted as such. I won’t get into the details right this minute but I have discovered that I have a lot of sexual energy. The limiting condition is that I don’t transmute it, rather since I was probably 10 so for half of my life I have been “transmuting” into a fucking towel. Which sounds a lot like wasting it. I could get into it all but that’s a bit far to put into the community but at this point I’m just over it all and am only interested in getting on with it. Okay if you’re still reading you get the point, enough with side stepping it hahaha. Essentially since I was 10 I have been “addicted” to porn. “Addicted” because at the level where my soul resides addiction does not exist and is only ego play. Studies have shown that porn has a similar impact on the brain as heroin does. And with enough conditioning (almost daily since 10) that is where the “addiction” comes in. It is not heroin or an opiate and likewise does not have physical withdrawal. Needless to say I really don’t care about any of that. What I care about is its implications energetically and spiritually. What it does is drains the most fundamental and vital physical energy source within my body. My sexual energy, which is my creative energy. Creative energy is the source of all spiritual growth because it is literally creation within ourselves. I.e of our solar astral bodies and understanding of our lunar astral bodies. Retention is just the egoic version of transmutation, it does not work. Remember the car? It is called bramacharia in Vedic traditions. Essentially celibacy. Look into it, Tesla, newton, Beethoven, mozart, Einstein (I think). There’s more but the rabbit hole goes crazy. Now all this is great, there’s a place to strive for but wait I don’t strive. I just am. But sometimes a different I comes in and mindlessly eats the apple. But wait it’s not a different I. “I” (the one that is witnessing the whole game) is still there witnessing said different I, eat the apple. Haha welcome to vertical schizo land. Not really but kinda. The question is how can the “I” witnessing myself witness my ego before the ego witnesses itself? It’s almost like I’ve created an egoic witness that my “true” witness can witness. That’s far out. If you are reading this and are or have dealt with this cultural parasite I see you, and I understand your pain, you are not alone. Through love and compassion we can all escape Plato’s cave. Now seriously if you are still here reading my rambling I love you :) Namaste, Sage Ram Ram

The author reflects on recent mental drain and a struggle with 'porn addiction,' which they view as a misuse of creative/sexual energy. They explore the idea that creative energy stems from the divine union of masculine and feminine, analogous to sexual energy, and that its non-transmutation (like 'eating the apple' or keeping it like an overflowing car) is harmful. The post suggests that true transmutation, not mere retention (like celibacy), is key to spiritual growth, and offers solidarity to others facing similar 'cultural parasites.'

the witnessing part hits different, that's the real work right there. most people are trapped in the ego watching the ego, but you're already aware of the whole game happening. that's not schizo that's awakening. the energy piece makes sense too, transmutation over retention, keeping it flowing instead of damming it up. appreciate you naming this so clearly for others dealing with it