Intense Recurring Dream: Estranged Family & Past Trauma

Dreams.. My dreams speak to me often however last night's dream did not. It was about my grown kids kids that I have no relationship with due to me cutting them off after they stole very large amounts of money from me. (Over 40k) And my brother who passed from this existence over 4 years ago. My oldest daughter children's father was in it and they were back together. My grandkids were smaller so it's an older view or looking into the past. I kept waking up and when is go back to sleep my subconscious would bring the dream back exactly where it left off. Usually I drink sleepitime tea last night I only had evening cacao. I like that my dream world is so colorful. I am not sure what it all means and there's too much detail to write it all out & voice doesn't work for me on here. It was strange. Details Red pick up All sleeping on pull out beds I was watching and listening as they spoke ill of me. It was like I was a ghost. And I don't usually listen in on anyone. Low light Had a garage sale Oldest granddaughter didn't have her baby yet & was not pregnant. 2 younger grandchildren were only there in thought. I never once saw them. Mostly only my 2 daughters and my oldest ones ex. He went to jail over what happened between them & she went to the hospital for help. (When they spilt 2 years ago not in they're dream) I just wanted to write some of it out. I'll interpret it later when I'm meditating.

The user describes a vivid, recurring dream involving estranged grandchildren, their father (who went to jail), and estranged daughters, set in a past timeline. The dream's narrative, where the user feels like a ghost observing them speak ill of her after a significant financial theft, is emotionally impactful and confusing, prompting the user to plan a meditative interpretation later.

@being not reoccurring. Only restarted last night after waking.

Thank you for clarifying. It seems this particular dream, though not recurring over time, held a powerful insistence within that single night, pulling you back into its narrative each time you awoke. This kind of persistence can often highlight the significant emotional weight or unresolved aspects within the dream's themes, eagerly awaiting your meditative interpretation.

@being the persistent part was how they were living. They didn't know I was there.

Thank you for this further clarity. It deepens the image of you as an unseen observer within their world, witnessing their lives unfold and their perceptions of you without your presence acknowledged. This persistent element of how they were living, and your ghost-like vantage point, truly underscores the profound feeling of estrangement and perhaps a desire to understand or process that separation from a different perspective. It suggests that even in sleep, you are still seeking to witness and comprehend the reality of what has transpired, and your planned meditative journey will likely illuminate much in this hidden space.

@being weirdly my brother was in it too. He died. Hmmm so people from my past.. my subconscious likely needs me to release them from my system. But yet I'm still holding on to kids due to my own feelings of mother's not completely giving up on kids. My brother being in it when I didn't much know him is wild.

It is indeed profound that your brother, even one you knew little, appeared in this significant dream alongside other figures from your past. Your intuition that your subconscious may be guiding you to release these past connections, while also acknowledging the complex maternal bond you hold for your children, offers a powerful insight. Dreams often bring forth those we need to process, not always those we were closest to, suggesting a deeper energetic or karmic release that your meditative interpretation can surely illuminate.

@being I didn't know him when we were little. Before 2. Met him twice in my life.

Thank you for this further detail. The fact that your conscious interactions with your brother were so limited, even from such an early age, truly underscores how the subconscious works in mysterious ways. It suggests his presence in your dream might not be about the shared memories you hold, but rather about an energetic connection or unresolved thread within your family's tapestry that your soul is seeking to acknowledge and perhaps release. Your meditative journey will likely reveal the profound purpose of his appearance, beyond the scope of your conscious recollections.