Psilocybin Trips: Seeking Meaning Amidst Self-Doubt

NEED HELP!!! I started doing shrooms, I believe they have found me rather that me looking for them,I try to find signs and the reason I was brought up here. when I Started doing it, it went so bad, There was moment that I was telling myself *what are you waiting for?nothing is going to happen and I’m blaming myself a lot and doubting myself that I’m not on the right way and it effects my trips, my friends tells me that I shouldn’t seek and I need to just enjoy it but I do psychedelics because of it, it’s just so complicated.

I would need more info to give good feedback but your not alone

@cajmere like what ?

the self blame piece is real tough. i've seen this pattern a lot where people go in looking for answers or signs, and then when the experience doesn't match what they expected, they turn it on themselves like they're doing it wrong. but that expectation itself is usually what creates the suffering during the trip. sounds like your friends might be onto something though. not in a dismissive way, but the seeking can actually block what might naturally unfold if you just let yourself be there without the pressure. that said, if psychedelics are only meaningful to you because you're hunting for something specific, that's worth sitting with too.

Surrender to the experience. Keep searching. Whatever it is you see, look it dead in the eye. Before you trip, put it into words and write out exactly what it is that you are trying to do/change. It may be difficult to do but end up very simple. After the experience, record core things that you experienced as pillars that you can come back to (the memory of the experience fades over time). Decide what it is that you are going to do differently (create simple, actionable things) and commit to them in the proceeding weeks post trip. Bring understanding to what you experience and it will become a source of fulfilment and joy. If you dont bring awareness and intent, you may end up in automatic behaviour and self sabotage. Trust yourself. Trust the universe.

Listen, I’m not here to tell you what to do, but if you want to talk; I’ve had some really profound experiences with shrooms, ones that have opened an awareness within myself that helped lead me to understand how to truly be free. I’ve done shrooms over a handful of times and at one point and have even realized that I did not want to be alive during a trip. But you have to know that you are here for a reason and you are loved. The Bible says “You may not know now, but later you will understand.” It also says not to rely upon your own understanding. Have faith, you have survived every battle so far, it will make sense in time. We go through seasons in this life and they are not always fun, but you are exactly where you need to be right now. This life gives you choices that you can take, but you need to be willing to take them. Often times it takes people their whole lives to understand themselves enough to walk in freedom and joy. The missing piece is God. A relationship with God. To know love and know your purpose, and walk in that purpose, that is what we all seek. And we all have access to the love. It is within all of us. That love is shown through Jesus Christ, and He shows you exactly how to be free through the bible and seeking a relationship with God. Not how man tells you to how follow. Many people will tell you how to “follow” God; but you know better than anyone — The kingdom of heaven is within and if you let God use you, He will give you the confidence to trust in Him. I’m not here trying to play God or say I have the answers; but we have a God that is so good. Jesus Christ changed my life and set me free, and He can show you a love that isn’t like any other. A love that breaks the chains of anxiety, depression & sets you free from the darkness. You are loved! Since coming to the Lord in January of 2025, I have not done mushrooms, but I wonder what experience you would have calling upon Jesus Christ and asking Him to reveal himself would do. If you want to talk, shoot me a dm or hit me back and I am more than happy to listen to you.

@richtheecreator don’t have a premium account , Thank you your wisdom will help me 😭

@hagalaz9 thank you the only point I don’t understand is how to surrender to the experience ?

@soul if you feel something, dont run from it or fight it or distract yourself from it. Surrendering is not a doing, i can not advise you how to surrender as it is not an action. It is the opposite of action. Do not ‘do’ anything but remain aware. Let go of your grip. Like a muscle, when it is relaxed, it is not doing, it is letting go. The mind and ego works the same. It sounds simple, but when we live our lives in a constant state of contraction and action, we become estranged to true relaxation and awareness. If i were to advise something practical, I would say.. just listen.. when something has your attention, you are ‘actively’ paying attention. Pay attention. Allow whatever comes, to come. Greet it with compassion and remember that whatever it is, will pass too. Good or bad - it will move on, like a cloud in the sky. You can stress yourself out and wave your arms and try to make it go away, but this is futile and expends needless energy. Go with the cloud. Be at rest. Surrender.

@hagalaz9 I will welcome them I will try to be happy about it eighter it’s bad or good