Finding Peace Amidst Capitalist Frustration

Does anyone know how to be more at peace and less angry when your values don’t align with the world? I’ll try to explain better. I’m just so frustrated and exhausted with working so hard for everything. I want to spend more time outside but I can’t because I’m at work. We’re always so rushed and have to do the best and look happy. I’m anti capitalist. and I feel like I just pay so much to insurance for no reason. Why do I pay a premium to still have a high af deductible. Nothing feels doable for me. But I want to live and and just have a nice place of my own.

This is the exact problem I have. I do not want to waste my time at a job I don't like to make money to just barely even survive on top of that. I want to live in a self built cabin in a wooded area near water and live in peace the rest of my life off the land. No power poles or city water lines just me and the earth reconnecting. We should do this together!!!!

@lavalamp I wish i had an answer. My partner and i are in our 50s and are not in the best shape. Im on disability and panic anytime he gets hurt or sick because without him, im homeless, alone, and have zero hope. $940 a month doesnt cover anything and my ability to walk and take care of myself deminishes every year. The only thing that makes living in this cesspool of a world is being able to sit outside by the fire with him at night and watch the sky and talk about his day. Or on the weekends sometimes we go to the river and i watch him rockhound. We dont have extravegant tastes, drinking a couple of beers under our willow tree or just relaxing and watching movies is more than i ever had that felt like it was home and important and safe. I feel like the powers that be are making it so that could be gone in a blink. I worry about if my body gets worse or i have to be in the hospital- we will be destitute and he will work himself to death to try and keep us from losing our tiny house in the ghetto so I will not have to be uncomfortable somewhere i dont know. I hate that the world is still the haves and have nots. I hate that the justice system only works for the corrupt and rich. I hate that there is so many things we cant afford after our house payment and food that he goes without health insurance and i dont drive anymore to save on gas for him to be able to work. Everything is so hard that doesnt need to be. I just try to spend as much time with him and our cats in the moments of peace after he gets home. I try not to let things get to me so he doesnt worry. Because one day he wont be there. Or i wont. I just dont want the establishment to get the satisfaction of breaking my spirit first. I may be poor, and crippled. I wont let them make me a have not. So, i guess my sanity suggestion is just do what you can with the ones that mean the most and dont take it for granted. They can take everything from us whenever they want but we still have love and our memories. Sometime thats what gets me thru the day, anyway.