Finding Peace in Digital Silence

I feel like sometimes my favorite time of day is when my phone goes into its little “Sleep Mode” and I don’t get all my notifications right away. It’s like I know I could just not have a phone or turn notifications off all the time, but I don’t. I like sleep mode because sometimes I don’t even check it until the morning. When my phone is in sleep mode it’s sort of like a Schrödinger’s Cat situation. Anyone could have texted me anything, I could have 20 DMs on Instagram, I could have four missed calls from the one that got away. It only becomes untrue when I open my phone and look. I wonder if there’s folks out there who don’t care to look who watches their stories, or who feel nothing from being left on read for a week. Oh god how I wish I could be nonchalant. I wish I could have “Sleep Mode” all the time. - a deeply DEEPLY codependent individual lol

I’m trying to be on my phone less. Can’t be in the present if I’m always waiting for a notification