Cannabis Reflection: The Language of Trauma

Every week this app does that soul analysis thing and every week it says something about the lingering impact of trauma. and it's like... YEAH. i know. I know I'm traumatized. Idfk. Something about the word trauma rings hollow in the vast empty pit that my entire life has worked tirelessly to open in my stomach. Trauma. Right. Obviously. It has the same ring to it in my mind as "Unpleasant" or something, but idk. even unpleasant is something that makes more sense as a word to me. all that unpleasantness. Trauma is a useful word and I will continue using it because communication with other entities is important and it communicates what I need it to without subjecting me to being metaphorically skinned alive as I reveal myself when I need to talk about it. So I am going to keep using it because in most scenarios I will not need to give the gorey details. Suffice to say "Trauma." But giving all of it a name and that name being "trauma" is immensely unusable to us. unfathomable. in our own internal monologue we never refer to it as that. When shit is really hitting the fan, "Not Ideal" or "Unpleasant" are the worse we mostly will say outloud or communicate directly to a friend. But despite those being understatements they are accurate adjectives. They aren't a name for the all of it. They aren't a Noun. Idefk what I'm getting at. I guess it's just weird to see it used every week. It's not a bad thing just jarring. -Sorrel and Connor

The author reflects on their weekly 'soul analysis' consistently labeling their experience as 'trauma,' which feels hollow and insufficient compared to the profound, unnamed emptiness they feel. While acknowledging 'trauma' as a necessary communicative tool, they find it an unfathomable and unusable noun for their internal experience, contrasting it with understated terms like 'unpleasant' or 'not ideal' which feel more accurate, though still incomplete.

Yes there’s a lot of stigma but everyone has trauma in some way. Better to feel it and know you’re safe now

Trauma is more than a word and is probably affecting how you respond (or don't) to everything. I wish you healing