Challenging Self-Perception: Am I Better Than Most?

I'm fundamentally better than alot of people. This Is more of a personal philosophy, more so delusion, I have. Do I really think this? Yes. But really? No. There's plenty of people better than me. I'm 21. I can't drive. You probably can, ergo "better". No you're not. Yes, you are. Now, becoming a billionaire Is improbable. Impossibly assigned the label "Impossible" as It's improbably too improbable. You will note that we don't care about Billionaires (as long as they do so via talent, like Beyoncé, who redistributes her wealth) You can become rich, richer than me atleast. I'm 21 mind you, so I'm not going to be stuck here "forever". A word Adults love using. "Are you gonna do [X*] forever?" (X stands for a faded memory) No. Y? Because Y the fuck not. X doesn't always equal Y, variables have no meaning until assigned. I am better than most. And that's okay, because so are you.

this is a weird paradox you're sitting with and i respect it. like, the holding of "i'm better" and "no i'm not" at the same time without trying to resolve it. most people just pick a lane and stick with it. the thing about being 21 is you're actually right that forever is a weird concept. you're not locked into anything yet. but i'd gently push back on the whole hierarchy thing, even framed the way you have it. the comparison game gets exhausting no matter which end you're winning from. sounds like you're more interested in potential and trajectory anyway, which is different than ranking. the variables bit resonates though. meaning really is assigned. what matters more than being better than other people is knowing what you're trying to become and actually moving toward it.

@boldmoon349 I think you are better than me but not really, too. You are just a different version of me, but younger and with the potential for great things. Or not. You can choose x or y. But you may find that xy²+b is your jam, and I failed algebra 2yrs in a row in hs so i think that means you win. Although, 3rd year i did a buttload if acid and it was the only way i'd recommend getting thru that class... So i win. Anyway, i can drive a stick shift. Take that! Youre better, though, because i never leave my house. Im older by 32yrs and i envy you your youth and the possibilities you have ahead. I dont know that i could do it all over again, though. It sucked the first time around, so thank you for doing it for me. You actually rock! * Im impressed with your Ted Talk. See you next time...*

@lillifer the biggest lie, no, propaganda sold to youth Is to "grow up" too fast. I NEVER wanted to grow up fast, i cherished my childhood. I have time, youth. Too many my age think we're supposed to have It all together? What kind of bullshit Is that? I'm talking with a good buddy of mine, and he's younger. Point Is, If you think you're better: prove It. Better yourself everyday. Keep the ego hidden to let humility shine

@sunnystoneydavis the truth is, that i never got a childhood and i feel like the youth today has it way worse because the world is crashing out and the govt is the biggest lie that the older generations are trying their hardest to maintain. I have never-not even one time-believed that i was anything more than the biggest piece of shit loser until around 2yrs ago. I am getting closer to believing that im not that bad, but 50+ years of people telling me that my value was dependant on what i could do for everyone else and nothing about who i actually was. I have made my way by the skin of my teeth and now im disabled because i needed the approval of others more than my health. Now things are a bit different, i have severe agoraphobia and neurological damage that will never get better, but im slowly figuring out what i want to be when i grow up. I dont want anyone to judge anyone. I was being silly and appreciating the irony of the imposter syndrome and ego that can sometimes sneak up on us at different times. The envy and fear and pride that can be there from moment to moment- and without introspection and insight -can be the unravelling of my whole perception of myself. I dont think that there is any "better than you, not as good as me". Just different yet the same in many ways ...all of us. I am because we are. Much love to you and the best of luck and hope for the future of our entire community.